Back to the title of the blog

Well I named the blog well. It is a constant remider to me. After having Jeff come on board I was hoping to start the process in fairly short order as an adoption takes so long in itself. The decision is to wait! Wait and save. I have been protesting the waiting to start for months but I think I finally have come to grips with this and am now able to post that we will wait. Jeff has a certain amount in mind he would like to save before we begin the process. Since our adoption information meeting I have been constantly thinking how to make this happen sooner. I have seen God send me answers to prayers within a day on ways to save and I have also seen that even with those answers to get to that figure I have to wait, but as my friend and neighbor who is also an adoptive mother said to me, you would wait to have Brennan be your son right? You are waiting for YOUR child". She is so right and so I WAIT. I may post here and there on the lessons of waiting that I am learning day to day or the special moments that i want to remember but for the most part I will post after the WAIT.

As a reminder

I named the blog In God's Time...Not My Own to remind me that I can not be in control of this situations. At times this has been a very hard lesson for me to learn.

I have always had the desire to adopt a child from Asia before my children were born even before I was married. For years I would bring this up to Jeff and we were just not on the same page. It would be discussed here and there, life would go on, it would come up again, life would continue. I finally came to the hard conclusion that even though this was what I felt was right for me it would not be the right decision if Jeff was not 100% on board.

Then a few months ago Jeff himself made a comment about adopting. I had pretty much given up on the idea but that comment was enough to get me to thinking about it again (and unfortunately for Jeff me nagging about it). Jeff seemed to be considering and I persisted but he was still not sure. At a party for friends of ours it was brought up and Jeff jokingly made reference to me as sandpaper. It was funny at the time but I felt terrible about it the more I thought about the comment. That was not how the decision was to be made it had to come from his heart.

That is when I decided I had to completely surrender this decision to God. My prayer was for God to please change Jeff's heart or (as hard as it was to say) please change mine. I managed to keep my mouth shut for a while and I dont' even know when or how it happened but he is on board. This has been an amazing year of growth for both of us. In so many situations we have had to step out in faith and to see answers to those prayers has been amazing.

Our journey begins

After many years of discussing, J and I have finally come together and decided to begin a journey down the road to adopt.

My main goal in setting up this blog is to be able to document this journey we are about to take and also to share updates and pictures with those who are interested.