As a reminder

I named the blog In God's Time...Not My Own to remind me that I can not be in control of this situations. At times this has been a very hard lesson for me to learn.

I have always had the desire to adopt a child from Asia before my children were born even before I was married. For years I would bring this up to Jeff and we were just not on the same page. It would be discussed here and there, life would go on, it would come up again, life would continue. I finally came to the hard conclusion that even though this was what I felt was right for me it would not be the right decision if Jeff was not 100% on board.

Then a few months ago Jeff himself made a comment about adopting. I had pretty much given up on the idea but that comment was enough to get me to thinking about it again (and unfortunately for Jeff me nagging about it). Jeff seemed to be considering and I persisted but he was still not sure. At a party for friends of ours it was brought up and Jeff jokingly made reference to me as sandpaper. It was funny at the time but I felt terrible about it the more I thought about the comment. That was not how the decision was to be made it had to come from his heart.

That is when I decided I had to completely surrender this decision to God. My prayer was for God to please change Jeff's heart or (as hard as it was to say) please change mine. I managed to keep my mouth shut for a while and I dont' even know when or how it happened but he is on board. This has been an amazing year of growth for both of us. In so many situations we have had to step out in faith and to see answers to those prayers has been amazing.