I walk by our picture of our new little guy several times a day. I smile and thank God for the beautiful boy He has blessed us with, but for some reason today I walked by an stopped in my tracks.
I grabbed his file to remind myself of some dates and the day this picture was taken was also the same day he was transferred from the baby reception center to his foster mother.
I grab his picture again and stared at him and realize, at that moment this picture was captured he does not know what LOVE feels like. This is the first day he met his foster mother and until this day he had not known the love of a mother. He has been cared for and cared for well but the feeling of love is not among his life experiences yet....and my heart began to hurt.
Our referral day was wonderful. You see the face of your child that you have waited for so long. There is so much paperwork to do and so many people to share the wonderful news of your new child and show them his beautiful picture the joy over shadows reality.
It hurts to look at the picture and imagine him not knowing love. He is just sitting there clueless. How blessed those of us are that have never had to point to a period in our lives where we did NOT know the love a family.
I am thankful that my baby now knows the love of a family. He has had the love of a foster mother for a little over a month now. I am thankful that he will one day soon know my love FOREVER but wish it didn't have to be this way.
I am so glad God set the lonely in families and that so many who were once labeled an orphan find families and know that love..... but there so so many that never get this chance.
If you have ever been on the fence about growing your family through adoption please consider. No child should ever have to be sitting in a room and not know the feeling of love....not when there are so many of us who can give it.
.....whatever you did for one of the least of these....you did for me.
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