School starts in less than a month so now we have the complication of taking the kids out of school for an extended period, my daycare will be open again and I will have to close two separate times, I tried to sit down and attempt to plan out and get prices for these upcoming two trips in it is practically impossible, randomly checking recommended hotels for prices one to two months out (which is about how much notice we will have to go) there is not availability. I feel scared to pick some random hotel half way across the world.
I have been frustrated, annoyed, a little angry at these delays, judges month long vacations, 6 week hold up getting submitted to court, and all these extra thousands of dollars that we did not anticipate with this adoption..... AND IT seems like no one on the other end cares about how hard and costly this is on us adoptive families....then yesterday sitting in church singing the a Vacation Bible School song we sang a verse, "I want to be Your hands and Feet", and I remembered a phrase I heard once - "If you think the process of adoption is hard, try being an orphan".
God laid adoption on my heart as a means of growing our family and HE will figure this all out.
I have a little boy half a world away who is about to experience loss AGAIN for the 3rd time in his short life. He felt the loss of his birth mother, then the loss of the nanny who cared for him the first few months, now is about to be separated from his foster mother. The woman he spends 24/7 with for the past 7 plus months who has cared for him like a mother. He is about to loose his birth country, his language, familiar foods, sounds and smells. My frustration is nothing compared to that.
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